There comes a time where you sit and wonder what it is that you really want from life. Do you want happiness, love, wealth, etc.. For now, mine lies in the fact that I am completely lost when it comes to deciding how I feel. I want more than anything to open myself up to someone but, yet I shield away because yes, like every other girl out there I've been hurt and pretty badly at that. It shouldn't be this new person's fault but, those feelings of doubt, and every now again regret are there. He love's me more than I think I deserve sometimes because, I... in return can't express myself at the level he's at. Granted he's not rushing me, sometimes I feel...lost...I guess and even then that's not the right word. I don't know maybe a little more time will show me that it's okay to open my heart again....right?
